Sunday, October 30, 2005

Man and Woman - Day Six

During all of these years, my wife was extremely supportive of me. I do not think I would have survived if it were not for her presence with me. And yet I was growing further and further apart from her. My beliefs and values were changing. I will not try to explain what happened. It would require me to violate her privacy. However, in 2001 our differences were too great for me to continue to live with her. Maybe in the middle of a midlife crisis, or maybe at the bottom of one of my depression cycles, I left her and filled for a divorce.

However, I reached out to another woman for help. From the beginning, she and I clicked. I believed we had the same dreams, the same world outlook, and the same values. We married in 2002, probably not the smartest thing I have ever done. However, for the first year we had an absolutely wonderful time together. We had problems but were able to work through most of them. However some problems were just too big. Again, out of respect for her privacy, I will not say much about those. However, so of the stress came from the fact that, in order to be with her, I had to move 400 miles away from my children. They never accepted her or my divorce from their mother. It was too fast for them. It was too soon for me. My career and that of my second wife took a nose dive. The financial strain resulted in the two of us moving to where I now live… I live with my father. She divorced me in 2004. We have gone our on ways to try to find our own paths through life.

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